Around the end of May (and my 48th birthday) I started coming out of the long term depression I had been mired in. At first I was terrified that my bi-polar was acting up again. It had been so long since I had felt happy and good I didn't recognize what it was. No it was not my bi-polar, I was just happy again. About the same time one of my doctors at the VA gave me a prescription to help me sleep better (I was only sleeping 2-4 hours a night) She gave me Amitriptyline. I have a feeling that this med has helped me in maintaining my good mood.
Had some things going on that were really frustrating. Mostly to do with treating my Fibro, but instead of letting it get to me I just shrugged my shoulders and went on to the next thing that might help. In a surprise ending the new general practitioner doctor I got assigned to at the VA knew about and could treat me for my fibro, I had gotten so use to the VA not being able to deal with my problem it kind of in a good way floored me. I am now on a med that has been used successfully for fibro for a long time. Haven't been on it quiet long enough to see any results yet but I am hopeful.
Other things have changed for me since May. I joined a book club at the library, mostly just to get out of the house, and I even participated a bit in the discussions. Shortly after that my computer died in the computer geeks hands as I stood over his shoulder. Poof...dead! I bought another cpu from the computer geek but it started acting up the first week. I took it to him to look at, but at that time they had just closed on a house and he was super busy trying to get it ready to move into and didn't have time to work on computers. I went into their Cafe several times over the next week or so to use their computers and fell in love with the laptop I used when I was there. I asked if they would consider taking payments for the balance on it (they already had $100 of my money for the non-working cpu) to my amazement and delight they accepted my offer and I am now on a laptop. I have dial up at home but the laptop is set up for wi-fi too. I can take it to the Cafe, the library, McDonald's and my step-mom's and use wi-fi. for things that I want to do that speed makes easier., Like downloading programs, pictures and posting things with pictures in them. I still go to the Cafe usually three times a week. It is good for me to get out of the house and I have made friends with Mark (the geek) and his wife Ronda. I see and talk to other people while I am there too (actually got hit on there yesterday, was kind of funny and flattering at the same time).
So even though I have been unable to get in contact with my kids (the most important thing on my to do list) I have been doing really well the past few months. I talk to people more. Last Saturday I even joked with and horsed around with someone I had only met twice before. And it was all good. I wouldn't have even considered doing some like that just a few short moths ago. I am also participating more in my on-line sites instead of lurking in the background and here is the BIGGY I'm using the phone again...had a real phobia about that for the longest time. It really tied me up in knots every time I picked up the receiver. I surprised my mom with a phone call. It delighted her. And I was proud of myself for having been able to do it.
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