Alive again

Around the end of May (and my 48th birthday) I started coming out of the long term depression I had been mired in. At first I was terrified that my bi-polar was acting up again. It had been so long since I had felt happy and good I didn't recognize what it was. No it was not my bi-polar, I was just happy again. About the same time one of my doctors at the VA gave me a prescription to help me sleep better (I was only sleeping 2-4 hours a night) She gave me Amitriptyline. I have a feeling that this med has helped me in maintaining my good mood.

Had some things going on that were really frustrating. Mostly to do with treating my Fibro, but instead of letting it get to me I just shrugged my shoulders and went on to the next thing that might help. In a surprise ending the new general practitioner doctor I got assigned to at the VA knew about and could treat me for my fibro, I had gotten so use to the VA not being able to deal with my problem it kind of in a good way floored me. I am now on a med that has been used successfully for fibro for a long time. Haven't been on it quiet long enough to see any results yet but I am hopeful.

 Other things have changed for me since May. I joined a book club at the library, mostly just to get out of the house, and I even participated a bit in the discussions. Shortly after that my computer died in the computer geeks hands as I stood over his shoulder. Poof...dead!  I bought another cpu from the computer geek but it started acting up the first week. I took it to him to look at, but at that time they had just closed on a house and he was super busy trying to get it ready to move into and didn't have time to work on computers.  I went into their Cafe several times over the next week or so to use their computers and fell in love with the laptop I used when I was there. I asked if they would consider taking payments for the balance on it (they already had $100 of my money for the non-working cpu) to my amazement and delight they accepted my offer and I am now on a laptop. I have dial up at home but the laptop is set up for wi-fi too. I can take it to the Cafe, the library, McDonald's and my step-mom's and use wi-fi. for things that I want to do that speed makes easier., Like downloading programs, pictures and posting things with pictures in them. I still go to the Cafe usually three times a week. It is good for me to get out of the house and I have made friends with Mark (the geek) and his wife Ronda. I see and talk to other people while I am there too (actually got hit on there yesterday, was kind of funny and flattering at the same time).

So even though I have been unable to get in contact with my kids (the most important thing on my to do list) I have been doing really well the past few months. I talk to people more. Last Saturday I even joked with and horsed around with someone I had only met twice before. And it was all good. I wouldn't have even considered doing some like that just a few short moths ago. I am also participating more in my on-line sites instead of lurking in the background and here is the BIGGY I'm using the phone again...had a real phobia about that for the longest time. It really tied me up in knots every time I picked up the receiver.  I surprised my mom with a phone call. It delighted her. And I was proud of myself for having been able to do it.

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well that just sucks!

It's so frustrating sometimes to be poor. Medicaid of Florida makes you pick out HMO to use. I never used mine because I get my health care from the VA. But they don't really treat Fibromyalgia. I finally started using my HMO because I wanted to see a rhymutoligist for my fibro. I got in to see a doctor and he started me on Lyirca with samples. I told them to call my HMO to see if the plan covered Lyirica before he prescribed it. Well he calls in a script and my pharmacy puts in a special order to get it. Then the doctors office calls me and tells me that the HMO will not cover Lyrica and oh by the way the doctor is no longer taking your HMO.

So I spend Friday getting it canceled and talking to the medicaid people. The battery in my phone dies in the middle of this and I have to go off and find another phone. I am now supposed to pick one of four other HMO's. I spent Sunday at McDonald's in the playplace area because thats the only place that has plugs for my laptop. I have way to much to look at to use just my battery. I notice that the doctor is listed under 2 of the other HMO's. OK maybe I can still see him.

First thing Monday morning I call his office and ask about him taking either of them and the girl who answered the phone said that he wasn't taking any of them anymore . The next nearest doctor my first HMO could find was 40 miles away. I just can't do that right now. Not even if they provide transportation like I think they said they would.

So I'm back with the VA I have a new doctor there and we will see what he can do or set up for me. Also learned about a medication that has been used for fibromyalgia for years that nobody even told me about let alone tried on me. I will bring this up to the new doctor.